It’s hard for me to trust again after being broken so many times. Life has taught me that the people you love and care for the most can also be the ones who betray you.
That’s why it hurts so much. That’s why I developed trust issues and I have a hard time letting people in. I am scared to be vulnerable.
But, I decided to let you in.
I feel safe enough around you to do just that. To let you see all of my brightness and all of my darkness. My energy, radiance and softness and my old scars.
I am praying that I can really trust you with my heart and I hope you won’t break it.
I hope you see how special you are to me. You are so much better than I could ever imagine and I am still getting to know you. You make me live in the moment and look forward to the future.
I am trying to trust you completely.
You never have done anything that would make me distrustful of you. But I guess it’s my past that made me this way. It installed this fear in me that I can’t shake off.
I catch myself thinking that I will lose you, even though everything is good between us. And I try to shake those fears off immediately.
I am concentrating on my feelings now. I am focusing on happiness. I am focusing on you. I am focusing on me. I am focusing on us.
I am allowing myself to be vulnerable again. I tell you all that’s on my mind, even though I would rather stay silent.
I know that communication is the only way in which we can build a meaningful relationship.
I am trying to see myself through your eyes.
There is that spark in your eyes when you look at me. You admire my beauty, the way I talk and think. You are amazed at all the silly and cute things I say.
For the longest time, I thought it was something about me that was ruining my relationships. I thought I was the one to blame for my exes’ toxicity.
It took me a long while to realize that had nothing to do with me. Now you are making the good opinion I have of myself even better.
I feel that I am as special to you as you are to me.
I feel that we found each other. We are so different and so similar at the same time. We have a relationship that is so simple and so extraordinary at the same time.
In you, I finally found someone I can be myself around. Someone who doesn’t play games or make me anxious. Someone who respects me and treats me right.
I am not scared to fall for you because I know you are there to catch me.
I daydream about you—do you know that? I keep waiting for the moment when I will see you with so much anticipation that I feel that everything before you wasn’t even love.
Not the real kind at least. I feel so safe when you put your arms around me. I enjoy the intensity with which you kiss me. I love when you are close to me.
I am chasing away all of my fears and embracing all the risks.
I know you could hurt me at any given moment but I am choosing not to think about it. I am turning all my negative thoughts into positive ones. I am trusting in the love that we share.
This is me being stronger than I’ve ever been and facing all of my fears. Putting my walls down because I am loved by you. This is me letting you in.